Sometimes words can not say what the heart feels. Music can express the things that our language cannot.

 

-The Anatomy Of A Nervous Breakdown: On The Sideline

Standing on the sideline, see the life I live passing me by.
I look inside but can’t go in.
Standing on the side while staring at myself, again I wonder. Who am I?

Let me go! Flee; far away from the life I once knew.
Let me fall, deep down! The truth will be down there to pick me back up.
Freeze time…for now…

Standing on the sideline, as an alien. It’s weird to feel; who’s that girl?
Standing here, so broken I’m too tired to grasp: that was me,
I was so self-assured!

Just let me go! Drift far away from the life I once knew.
Let me fall, deep down! The truth will be down there to pick me back up.
My own fear has brought me here.
Stand there alone on the sideline of life while it moved on.

Me, that person, I look so astray.
Re-inventing myself? I mimic in my search for me.
Like a doll on string I move. Like a marionette of a lost soul.
I am in there somewhere but for now I stay right here.

I’m on the sideline!

Just let me go! Drift far away from the life I once knew.
Let me fall, deep down! The truth will be down there to pick me back up.
My own fear has kept me there. Standing alone on the sideline of life while it moved on.
This made me so humble! I’ll stay a little while longer.

-The Anatomy Of A Nervous Breakdown: The Limbic System

Sounds creep softly into my ears. Deafening as it’s exploding in my head.
No silent peace. My head keeps making symphonies of deluded thoughts.

Thoughts and dreams and music.
Streaming endless, they are stuck in my head!

Open nerves, they’re killing me.
Enlarging everything.
My mind explodes; it’s burning up and scaring me.
Nothing feels the same, So strong it shuts me down, so strong I lost control.

Emotions creep slowly into my heart, not just my own, I pick up every signal.
Inflamed and sore. My heart keeps making tragedies of diminutive things.
My everything hurts!
My system burns!

Sounds and words and memories.
They captured me, they’re stuck in my head!

Open nerves, they’re killing me.
Enlarging everything.
My mind explodes; it’s burning up and scaring me.
Nothing feels the same. So strong it shuts me down.

Open nerves!
They’re showing me the truth by force. My body’s completely drained.
And primitive emotions can thrive. Goodbye ‘control’.

I feel more pain.
My system forces me to.
A mental twist to fear all I can become… I can become!

Open nerves, they’re killing me.
Enlarging everything.
My mind explodes; it’s burning up and scaring me.
Nothing feels the same.
As it shuts me down. A signal I can’t defy.
They’re showing me the truth by force. My body’s completely drained.
And primitive emotions can thrive. Goodbye ‘control’. Goodbye illusion…